Yes, Halloween Night

Yes, Halloween night
Drink beer and relaxing
With Minnie ears on

Another day gone
Avoiding what should be done
Give no fucks for now

Free in the Present

Four girls, one circle
As we become more tired
Snacking and chatting

An art gallery
Without those perfect moments
There is no meaning

Feels like forever
Only two hours left
Desk meditation

Eyes are so tired
And with a dreary fall day
I just want to nap

Future coming fast
Don't hold on to fears or hopes
Free in the present

Drizzling grey sky
Hoarse voices cheer from the stands
Afternoon soccer

Sometimes the past becomes a blur. But there are certain times I don't want to forget. Times of pure happiness or fun. Times that have touched me or affected me for some reason. Times that have changed me and times were I have grown. Times which were better than expected. There are times I don't want to forget.

But Then I Worked Out

Higher place of mind
A deep breath in, deep breath out
Let us meditate

Some days waste of time
But I guess I'm getting paid
Earlham work study

Felt like I would die
Just so tired all the time
But then I worked out

What I really want
Maybe I just do not know
Figuring it out

I need to meditate more often.

No Presents For Us

"Sex is a great gift"
But it is not Christmas Eve
No presents for us

My toaster how sad
Tori is hilarious
8 eggos a day

Taco night and tag
And some tickling as well
Lazy Monday night

Slight mental breakdown
Emotions all up in here
I just need a nap

So It's Been Some Time

So it's been some time
Since I've dropped a couple rhymes
A lot of changes

A lot of changes
But one thing is still the same:
My shitty haiku

You have a girlfriend
Breaking up would be great though
So we could just fuck

Sunny autumn day
Smell of freshly picked apples
Good memories made

So many worries
I know I can be stronger
It's just really hard

Time takes no notice
As the more friends I make the
More I say goodbye

That haiku was so shitty it isn't even a real haiku.

I'm scared to say goodbye to all of the amazing friends I have made here. It's hard to become really close with people when you know that eventually you will be separated. I know we can still stay in touch even if we are far away, but that just isn't the same as seeing the people you love on a regular basis.

I'm scared about my future. I'm scared about getting a real job. I'm scared about not knowing what I want to do with my life. I'm scared of not being able to support myself or the ones I love.

I'm scared of the future.

But I'm also optimistic. And I'm also excited. And I'm so grateful now for the great friends and family I have, and for the incredibly wonderful and amazing experiences I have had so far. Nothing is perfect, and there have been bad times too, but those aren't the times that stick with me.

I'm going to continue to live my life the best way I can. I'm going to continue to evolve and grow as a person. I have come so far in the past couple of years; I have started to love myself. I look forward to the way I will continue to change as a person. Life can be really hard some times, but it can also be really great too.

Here is a cat