Too Late for a Nap

Where has the day gone?
And why am I so tired?
Trying my best here

So an okay time
But we're back to ignoring?
Whatever I guess

I dreamed about you
And I feel nice around you
Am I just lonely?

Too late for a nap
I want to get more rest but
Too early to sleep

Racism at lunch
A bonding experience
We joke about race

Can I Skip this Part?

Looking on it now
I've made a lot of mistakes
And continue to

Can I keep this up?
I really hope that I can
Someday I'll be strong

How it went who knows
Awkward for sure but okay?
Confusing feelings

No motivation
But then again what is new
Can I skip this part?

Absently she looks
As the trees block out the sun
And a sigh escapes

Against the Blue Sky

Against the blue sky
A medium puff of cloud
Leisurely drifts by

Awkward encounter
So quickly my mood changes
As the sun goes down

Super Delicious

Somber looking eyes
Talk lined with gossip and drinks
She sits quietly

Made Japanese food
Soba, udon, curry too
Super delicious

Finally Friday
While others play all night long
I am stuck in here

I had a lot of dreams last night. Here is a quick summary of them.

bloody luffa
bad curry car driving, horse, lost, dog
ruda injured, walking
my room ken story
feel tired
bathroom bahha
reddit kelsie nicole talk leave my room
prospie my room is big, tea cup, phone, etc.
beach people looking/digging scary thing
my room jamelle harvey
shoes backpack walking to gym
get to gym crowded tired gus reiko walk down fake stairs
leave out big garage door, field of soy walk get lost
come back guy with spaghetti sauce tiny crabs invites to party
walk through door

Unfair from the start

Bit spaced out today
Mistaking people and such
I just need to sleep

Will winter beat me?
So far I think it's winning
Unfair from the start

What am I thinking?
I'm going through the motions
While my mind is gone

So quickly indeed
Somehow I become attached
Unsettling glance

CPR Is Hard

So busy lately
Where is the time for myself?
Disliked lifestyle

Thinking of the past
As if it was just a dream
I can only smile

Oh scoliosis
Why you hurt my back so much?
Not cool at all spine

CPR is hard
What I have learned so far is
I can't save a life

I'd like to think that
If I could go to the past
Things would be different

Wake Up Feeling Sick

Wake up feeling sick
Want to spend the day sleeping
Is wishful thinking

Somewhat productive
But there is no end in sight
Miss being lazy

Can't Stop Drinking You

What has happened here?
I thought we formed connections
Sending mixed signals

While eating salad
You just walk on right by me
Looking straight ahead

A hard lesson learned
No matter how much I try
The end is the same

Big green Aloe drink
Why are you so addicting?
Can't stop drinking you

some days i feel unlovable

And recently I have been so moody. It's tiring.

So Unproductive

Such a long long day
And super tired as well
So unproductive

Laughter and Clinking

Laughter and clinking
In a blur the night progressed
Interesting indeed

Calling out my name
Your words of praise will trick me
All want attention

A man and his dog
With tail wagging excitement
Sledding down the hill

Without getting hurt
She tries he best to woe him
But to no avail

Things I Need To Do

Okay interview?
He says my chances are good
Here I come Japan?

Things I need to do
And the things I want to do
A constant struggle

Waking Up For Class

Waking up for class
Is hard to do when you get
Very little sleep

Somehow recently
Everything feels different
Have I stopped caring?

What happened to me
With no driving ambitions
My life continues

This Rumination

I guess in the end
Some things still do bother me
Like being distant

I say that I'm fine
But when i am around you
It doesn't seem so

I'm just so confused
As to what i am feeling
Too complicated

Sometimes I wonder
If I'm more complicated
Than most people are

This rumination
And all this self reflection
Can't be good for me

I wish I could say
Completely and honestly
That I'm doing great

Strangely I'm Content

Aroused by the clash
Early morning thunder storms
Strangely I'm content

Outside my window
Though skies were gray I felt good
Rainy winter day

I Have Been Thinking

Been safe so far but
I have a whole semester
To fuck it all up
(let's hope that doesn't happen!)

Harder than it sounds
Figuring out who I am
Unsolvable maze

I'm secretly lost
In a non-existing world
Far away from here

I have been thinking
Too much self reflection lately?
Just the way I am

Some days I feel so abnormal. Like I really am missing something. Like I lost something that most people have. And I'll never get it back. Do you ever feel like that?

It's The Moment When

It's the moment when
Dreams and reality mix
The lines start to blur

Oh so much to do
But I want to be lazy
And indulge myself

Our eyes start to lock
A new love window perhaps
But no hopes not yet

Moving from the past
Why did I feel as I did?
Still not very sure

In all honesty
I think I've matured a lot
More than you will know

At some point in time I stopped getting angry. Not permanently, things occasionally make me irked or upset, but for the most part I moved past that emotion. An old friend once told me that anger was a secondary emotion; it was always caused by some underlying emotion. And to me I guess that made sense. It is pointless and unproductive to be angry. Especially at the little things in life. The little things that happen daily which we have no control over. Like being stuck in traffic or when things don't go exactly as planned. I used to let those things bother me. I used to let those thing make me angry. Yet somehow somewhere along this road such things stopped making me angry. It's an interesting feeling. Something close to being enlightened if such a thing really exists. Watching other people get so angry or upset over such insignificant things baffles me now. I wonder how I became this way...

A Bit Hungover

A bit hungover
The memories of last night
Are foggy indeed

Cold Fingers, Warm Breath

Good at wasting time
Whether time moves fast or slow
Clocks tick on and on

Mind starts to wander
Yet at the same time stays still
That sort of feeling

Cold fingers, warm breath
The world becomes a pure white
A beautiful sight


I think those bittwersweet things, things that make you smile yet feel a profound sadness at the same time, are the most beautiful things in life.

Oh How Exciting

Classes start again
A stressful time lies ahead
Oh how exciting

Today I was told
I will make beautiful kids
It made me smile

Moving from the past
A difficult thing sometimes
Everything changes

Heart, what's going on
I don't understand my love
If that's what it is

I think I've moved on
But still wanting attention
Pathetic I know

And we could never go back to the way things were. Once something changes, even is that change is a minor one, it will never go back to the way it once was. Because things are constantly changing; it's an unstoppable force. And that's the way the world works. And it always will. But just because something changes doesn't mean it has changed for the worst. Things can be repaired, mended. It won't be the same as the past, but it's not lost or forgotten either. Which can be a good thing. Either way it's something we all must come to accept at some point in our lives.

Healthy Lifestyle?

Wanted to sleep in
But ended up working out
Healthy lifestyle?

Yeah she's losing it
She tries her best to hide it
Is it working though?

1Q84
Balance itself is the good
Forever searching

Another Long Day

Another long day
So much running through my mind
But I'll persevere

We've come to the point
Where you can only say hi?
And the rest were lies?

God What a Long Day

God what a long day
And somewhat pointless as well
I just want to sleep

Good to see my friends
But anxious to see others
And round two begins

Here it Goes Again

Waking up at 8
Without getting that much sleep
A horrible thing

So, back at college
Early for RA training
Oh how exciting

Here it goes again
Ready to see old faces?
Actually no

Was in a bad mood
Wish I could have properly
Said goodbye and thanks

Oceans, Dragons, What?

Oh last day of break
And what shall I do today?
Nothing as always

My dreams make no sense
Really I cannot explain
Oceans, dragons, what?

Guitar's vibrations
And the sight of you painting
I'll miss you brother

Feeling a Bit Sick

Feeling a bit sick
Want to be in bed all day
But oh if only

A Subtle Indifference

With concentration
My brother composes
Pressed piano keys

With the flow of time
Another day almost gone
Melds into the next

Sitting on the couch
A subtle indifference
Overtakes me now

Fall Without a Word

Everything turns white
Snowflakes continue to fall
Fall without a word

What am I doing
Losing touch with emotions
Who have I become?

Movie With My Dad

Hello period
And hello to the snow too
Few more days of break

Looks like a blizzard
Drinking freshly brewed coffee
From inside I watch

Movie with my dad
Girl with the Dragon Tattoo
Not family friendly

This Haiku is Stupid

A new year began
And a new haircut as well
This haiku is stupid

Korean music
Though I don't know Korean
I love you so much

New Year's Eve party
I could be a thumb model
Only a bit drunk