One More Hermit Day

One more hermit day
Yeah, mixed feelings about that
Waiting for the change

A pain in my mouth
And out comes a bloody tooth
It almost felt real

Haikus getting worse?
Well at least someone out there
Must see the humor

Stability's friend
From time to time however
I urge for that spice

Trying to change things
Have a positive mindset
It is not easy

Things I must deal with
But there is not enough time
So I'll push it down

Like being alone
But there needs to be balance
Need a social life

It came from nowhere
Like a storm without warning
Close to a break down

TIGF:
-Jogging again
-My active imagination
-Having a slight tan
-Not breaking down
-Water and other liquids
-Everything bagels
-Ripe peaches
-Cute birds
-My chipmunk
-Jasmine tea and honey
-Getting a back massage

Cats in a Window

The current countdown:
I have only two weeks left
Woah, that is crazy

These past couple days
I've watched so much on Netflix
Free time will be missed

To the future me
I know you will shine brighter
Than I do right now

Bright full moon hanging
Against a purple back-drop
A beautiful scene

The sun's rays bathe me
As I sit in my backyard
Relaxing moment

Not much accomplished
But that is okay with me
Lazy is the norm

I want to be strong
So that I can be bad-ass
And other stuff too

I try to explain
But I don't think you listen
To what makes me me

Cats in a window
Sitting still like a statue
Watch the world go by

TIGF:
-Brie cheese and bread
-Redbox movies
-Nice walks
-Beautiful days
-Good music
-Raspberry chocolate ice-cream
-Light periods
-Netflix movies that keep making me cry
-Only 2 weeks left
-Alone time
-Having three different types of peach tea for some reason...
-Cats in a window
-Remembering dreams from the night before that you forgot you had

So I Eat A Lot

Getting organized
With just about two weeks left
Excited, freaked out

Watching X-Files
From the corner of my eye
Mouse in the kitchen
(it was so cute so I didn't say anything to my friend whose house I was at...lol)

A late August day
Stretch my legs out in the sun
Re-energizing

So I eat a lot
But hey, I do exercise
I have no regrets

A conversation
Concerning if ghosts exist
I want to believe

TIGF:
-Bread and cheese
-Getting organized/packed
-Making sun tea
-Sitting in the sun
-Bird watching
-Soba noodles
-X-Files

As Green Turns to Red

As green turns to red
And the wind becomes colder
My time here is up

Shoe shopping with mom
Nice to spend time together
When my mood is good

600 page views
I guess that is pretty cool
Thanks for stopping by!

As hard as it is
For me to open those doors
I want to for you (who I haven't met yet...lol)

I want more muscle
So I can be lean and strong
And defend myself (ya know, defend myself in all of those fights I get into haha)

To my future self
Look back on these moments and
See how far you've come


TIGF:
-Yummy cheeses
-Evening walks
-Libraries
-Find a blazer that is cute and looks good on me
-Sitting and relaxing in my backyard

So the Other Day

Hell yes, finally!
I get to do some shopping!
Didn't get much though

So the other day
While I was watering plants
Found an army guy

Eating my dinner
And watching the bird feeder
As the rain falls down

You say my boobs sag
Even when I wear a bra
I don't care, fuck you

That time of the month
When anything makes me cry
Womanhood's worst part

TIGF:
-Chocolate chip pancakes
-Shopping
-Positive energy
-Hummus
-New nail polish
-tampons

I Will Be Alright

This may not be fate
But a flow exists I think
Not coincidence

Not sure what to say
So instead of aimless words
I'll remain quiet

I'm starting to have
Good thoughts for the near future
That I hope remain

I am not sure if
The people that surround me
Get lost in dreams too

What I do know is
That I want to be happy
No matter what else

As long as I feel
That emotion at some times
I will be alright

Much time spent alone
Though cherished and transforming
Ready for what's next

These haiku may seem
Like they aren't worth all that much
They mean much to me

Today I'm Grateful For:
-Decent movies
-And good movies too
-Good positive songs
-Silly Korean music videos
-Looking forward to the future
-Cold corn

Secluded Summer

Trying to run when
My legs don't really want to
Is quite the challenge

Premenstrual syndrome
Irritable and tired
Ugh, this is the worst

Although it is weird
Can't stop rubbing stomach
Gaining some muscle

Anxious to get ready
Though a bit too soon to start
Restless, restless yes

Secluded summer
Nice but strange at the same time
Not used to people

Today I'm Grateful For:
-Cereal
-Spiders that aren't in my house
-Finishing the not so horrible but not good book
-Coffee

Noodle Alley Night

Skyping yet again
Though this is a nice surprise
Jake you are crazy!

Mussaman curry
GOD I LOVE FOOD SO SO GOOD
Noodle Alley night

Burning up my thighs
Biking with a flat tire
No, not very fun

I guess in some ways
I am a bit more modest
Not ashamed at all

Today I'm Grateful For:
-Dried Cranberries
-Buying The Hobbit
-Almost finishing the not good not horrible book I'm reading
-Skyping with a slight soul mate
-Thai food
-Thai iced tea
-Getting most of the things off of my to buy list for Japan
-Selling old dvds and games and getting 40 bucks for it!
-Project runway
-Peaches
-Good moods
(I do this to keep positive, you know?)

Here is a pic of the Lembas bread I made~

And Then I'll Be Gone

Skyping with Becky
Talked for at least two hours
Was a lot of fun

Arguing, a bang
Though it was only a dream
4:50am

Hiking in the woods
There is so much I could say
I'll always love it

Stye under my eye
Where the fuck did you come from
Please just go away

And the day went fast
And so will the next three weeks
And the I'll be gone

TIGF:
-Lembas bread
-Fruit
-Cereal with silk milk
-Humus
-Always good food
-Hiking
-Sunny days
-Nice breezes
-Not so good books which aren't so horrible but not so good...
-Skyping with a friend

One Bite is Enough

One bite is enough
But no Legolas you lied
Ate three lembas bread

Running with the wind
And during such a short
Many emotions

Somehow my stomach
Or maybe my intestines
Aren't feeling too good

TIGF:
-Spending time with a friend
-Finishing a book
-Baking (lembas bread)
-Vanilla soy milk
-My hair looking gorgeous

Need to Get Out More

Banking in Japan
Exchange rates so expensive
Wish I had money

Just annoyed all day
Restless and irritable
Need to get out more

Friends bail yet again
At least I have my chipmunk
Better than a friend

TIGF:
-Tabatha's Salon Takeover
-Blankets
-Jogging
-Afternoon showers
-Trying to study
-Finding out that the bagels I thought were just plain are actually blueberry! (what an exciting life I lead!)

So I hate it when
I forget to post haiku
Oh well oh well oh

Food, Sleep, and Weather

A perfect feeling
I could do this for hours
Just sitting outside

Lazy lazy day
I didn't even work out
My stomach hurt though!

Counting down the days
Really excited, oh yes
Cannot wait for this

Dinner with my dad
Mediterranean food
Tasty! oh so good

Food, sleep, and weather
Three things that affect my mood
No matter what, truth

When I reach that point
Where I really need to eat
I feel like crying

Random bruise on arm
How the hell did you get there?
Super clumsy me

TIGF:
-Shows about kittens and puppies
-Cheap but good fingernail polish
-Cool breeze, warm sun fresh days
-Being lazy
-Getting dinner with my dad
-Blueberry cheesecake
-Good hair days

Putting Some Things Off

Putting some things off
Not like that is new at all
Forever lazy

I sleep nine hours
And almost every night
So I'm tired why?

Pretty crazy dreams
Like where does this stuff come from?
Can't even explain

Cool afternoon breeze
I sit and inhale slowly
Refreshing, healing

Freshly shaven legs
My hands travel up and down
So smooth to the touch

Waiting for a call
Not from a boyfriend, yeah right
Somewhat pathetic

Dream party:
I am in a bedroom with two beds about to go to bed. There is someone else in the room with me, a roommate? Can't remember if male or female or someone I know in real life, but seemed familiar in dream. I noticed there were these round black bugs on the wall as I'm getting into bed to sleep. I think I called them water bugs in my dream? I try to flick one off the wall while I'm lying in bed but I keep missing. Then I think someone comes to the house/calls our house to let us know we have to get ready to go save some kids from a kidnapper or something.
I'm in a car with some people and we end up where the kidnappers are? There is a field and a tree and one of the ladies, sitting by the tree, has a kid in a blanket or something. I or someone puts a gun to her head and kills her? I can't remember but we save whoever we were trying to save I guess. Next I'm in the back of the car with people I know from real life L and E who both have food in their laps, L fortune cookie things. I'm holding onto a baby pig in my lap wrapped in a blanket, I guess we saved him and I know the pig is actually a person and Korean like L. I'm feeding the pig lettuce or something, idk, but I'm glad we saved him.
Fastforward to future? I think. I try to get into somewhere but my access is denied. I put my hands up meaning no harm, I think I knew that would probably happen. I am taken into a room by Tenzin?, for LOK, and he says something about me needing to pay. Bald guy comes in room, and I think I'm dating him also he kinda looks like Bruce Willis?, and says he can pay for me but Tenzin says it has to be me. I put a card into a machine that looks like a copier to try and get money.
Then I guess we are inside my subconscious in the dream. There is a blue sky with white clouds and a town? and some cargo crates suspended in air. The kidnapper lady that was killed tries to tell the bald guy, who is now Aang, that I am evil or something like that. I tell him he is lying. Then a blackish wind/tornado heads towards the cargo crates and Aang goes to protect them using airbending, since I guess secrets or something special are inside the crates. Then I woke up?
WTF BRAIN.

TIGF:
-Fresh breezes
-Controlling anger kinda
-Yummy free samples
-Ghost Adventures
-New music
-Reading
-Crazy interesting dreams
-Dat feel of freshly shaven legs. So smooth

Manos, Hands of Fate

Manos, hands of fate
It's on the big screen tonight
So so excited

UPDATE:

Manos was awesome
And I am really tired
Today was okay

TIGF:
-Rain
-My chipmunk
-Having some alone time to think
-Hanging with friends
-Seeing an awesome movie/live rifftrax

Free Samples in the Mail!

Time to meditate
Weird images, sensations
Overall calming

Free samples in mail!
I can't think of what to write
It was yummy though

Ready to move on
At the same time however
I like standing still

Somehow they enter
Through doors or windows maybe
Moths are in my room

TIGF:
-Refreshing walks
-Having some alone time
-Meditating
-Plums and other fruits
-A good book
-Free samples
-That warm feeling after you drink something that is warm...
-Being active
-Having time to waste

I Have Discovered

I have discovered:
The more boring my days are
Shittier haiku

Money, money, oh
If I had some more money
I wouldn't be poor

Got out PS2
Started playing Persona
Time waster, but fun!

Cupcakes my mom makes
Chocolate peanut butter
They are delicious

Restlessness building
Shouldn't I be doing more?
But what do I want?

TIGF:
-Working out
-Still having my old tv and ps2
-Chocolate peanut butter cupcakes
-Having time to waste on tumblr
-Fresh yummy cantaloupe
-Interesting and odd dreams
-Finding a soldier guy by my plants

Getting Excited!

Many days have passed
Things happened and things did not
Internal summer

Getting excited!
It's less than a month away
Heading for Japan

A host family dream
I hope we get along well
I really need that

Jogged a full mile!
I have improved much since May
Let's keep it up me!

Drip, drip, water drops
A constant, calming patter
Puts my mind at ease

TIGF:
-Cool dreams
-Jogging a mile (and not caring that I looked like an idiot with semi winter clothes on lol)
-Finishing a book
-Finishing Avatar ;_;
-My growing morning glories
-Old video games
-Teal pants
-Peanut butter chocolate cupcakes
-BBQ pork
-Rainy days
-Lost in Translation
-Finding out a fellow JS member will be on my flight!

Just Another Day

Just another day
Although I love days like this
Peaceful, relaxing

About to finish
Watching all of Avatar!
So this is all now

TIGF:
-River walks
-One month left
-Star gazing last night
-Buying things off my list to get
-Yummy melon
-Chipmunk buddy
-My parents
-Meditating
-Having a good workout

But I'm Posting Now!

Becoming social
Though we just played PS3
Was good to get out

Watched meteors fall
So didn't post yesterday
But I'm posting now!

X-files, What a Good Time

Hair cut super short
More volume and curly curls
I think it is cute

Delicious toppings
And delicious flavors too
Frozen yogurt yum
(I've had way too many desserts in the past two days...)

I had set a goal
Step by step I reached for it
Accomplished today!

So good to see you
X-files, what a good time
You've been a good friend

TIGF:
-Setting a goal and reaching it
-Getting a great hair cut
-Pizza
-Hanging out with a friend
-Free frozen yogurt WHICH WAS DELICIOUS
-X-files
-Joking with a friend

Food, Glorious Food

Dinner with some friends
Finally I can dress up!
It's nice to get out

Four different desserts
So much for healthy eating
Too good to resist

Gray and rainy days
Do not bother me at all
Strangely soothing days

One more day closer
Though it still doesn't seem real
Like time has frozen

Food, glorious food
What would I do without you?
Gluttonous habits

Rain splattered windows
And awkward conversations
This has become hard

TIGF:
-Rainy days
-Food
-Television
-Cute clothes
-Free dessert
-Laughing with friends
-Project Runway
-Getting out of my house

Late Night Post

The words that you said
I heard but can't remember
The things that we did
I did but it's all a blur
Promises we made
Have become long forgotten
I'll still smile though

Hey, Thanks For Reading!

Hey, thanks for reading!
Whoever and wherever
Amusing I hope

Rings and necklaces
Old fashion broaches as well
A jewelry exchange

As I walked the path
A mass of black flew past me
Mating butterflies

One, no two, no three!
Three raccoons gobbling seeds
Leaving none for birds

Sometimes when you're near
No reason to be angry
Yet I really am

TIGF:
-Hiking with my dad
-Mating butterflies
-Water
-Birds
-Humming birds
-Jewelry
-Peach jello
-Smell of rain
-Thin bagels
-Bi Bim Bop

Slowly Step by Step

Slowly step by step
I try to do what I can
For now its enough

Soy sauce, sriracha
Don't forget the brown sugar
A delicious sauce

Focus on breathing
Clear my mind of useless thoughts
Might do me some good

Summer went by fast
And soon I'll be in Japan
Holy shit, scary

TIGF:
-My mom braiding my hair
-My to buy list getting smaller
-Cute outfits
-Jogging my fastest mile
-Smoothies
-My growing plants

Impenetrable

Impenetrable
These abrupt walls that I face
Only make me sad

Words that should be said
Never quite escape my lips
And remain unsaid

Unproductive days
Somewhat content to stay still
But no, not always

Where have the days gone
Slipped unnoticed through my grasp
And now I am here

TIGF:

-Chocolate milk

-Starry skies

-Sound of music

-Fresh days

-The body I have now

-RHCP

-Plums

-Silly shows on Bravo

-Daydreams 

Rock 'n Roll Indeed

The rain pelted down
But that didn't phase the crowd
Rock 'n roll indeed

In my dreams last night
I did the splits no problem
My dreams make no sense

A cool summer breeze
Time to open my window
And clean up my room

Counting down the days
Still has not hit me yet
But oh man it will

TIGF:
-Styx concert fun (yesterday)
-Plums
-Dish soap
-Having a clean room
-Getting laundry done
-Yummy dinner made by my mom

Tired and Sunburn

Was a great great day
Then my mom blew up on me
Now I'm just upset

Tired and sunburned
And you won't give me more beer?
Get out of my room

TIGF:
-Trains to Chicago
-Star Wars theme starting to play upon entering Millennium Park
-Subway
-Water
-Kayaking
-Finding a duffle bag maybe?
-Yakiniku
-Japanese beer

Today I'm Pissed Off About
-My mom yelling at me when I just asked a simple question, not to be mean or condescending or whatever the fuck reason she thinks I asked it, because I want her to get a fucking job.
-The heat in Chicago and girl(s) who constantly complain

I keep wanting friends to be something they're not. Am I just not appreciating them, do I have too high of standards, or am I settling?

Best Friend Visiting

Best friend visiting
Overall a good good day
What a shit haiku (haha)

Maybe I shouldn't
But the words you said were sweet
So just friends, okay?

TIGF:
-Prescription sunglasses
-Starbucks
-Dad giving me cash
-Cake from neighbor
-Kiwi
-Friend coming to visit
-Soba noodles and steak
-Bubble Tea
-Wine and Trueblood
-Love from my chipmunk

Pork Chop, Egg, and Rice

Much better today
Jogging, shopping, and good food
This was much needed

Cute hungry chipmunk
I gave you so many nuts!
You're cute, it's okay

Waseda courses
Such a very random list
Oh, what should I take?

Pork chop, egg, and rice
One of my best meals ever
Vietnamese food

I really need to
Catch up on my Japanese
Always tomorrow!

Carry-on duffle
Either expensive or big
Elusive item

TIGF:
-Jogging my fastest mile
-Banana smoothie
-Finishing visa shit
-Getting new glasses
-Yummy Vietnamese food
-My chipmunk for still being alive
-Dove chocolate bars
-Having a good day
-Getting to see a friend tomorrow
-Everything
-Korean hip hop rap

Enough is Enough

Mood swings, back and forth
I wish I had more control
This is exhausting
(I blame biology)

Wanting something more
Causing dissatisfaction
Need to try harder

I keep thinking that
The future brings better things
I hope that I'm right

With ease I give up
Wallowing in self pity
 I hate being weak

Enough is enough
So tired of such feelings
Throw them all away!

God days like this just ugh. I need to keep reminding myself that I am more than this.

TIGF:
-My aunt for owning six cats
-Getting to pet those cats
-Pretty flowers
-For still keeping things together (kinda)
-For my legs not being so sore today