I'm Reaching the Point

I'm reaching the point
Where opening up seems hard
With anybody

Sometimes it seems like
You just want to hear your voice
So I'll just listen

Hung out with a friend
And although the time was well
It was straining too

Can't express with words
Such deep rooted emotions
Maybe for the best

Seriously, I don't understand it. Do people just see me as someone easy to talk to? Easy to open up to? Or just a blob, something vacant they can talk to? Reveal all that built up flow of words. Or maybe I'm not aggressive enough to hold my ground. To not stop you from interrupting me or from saying anything at all. Maybe it's not necessarily a bad thing, that when I talk to most people 80-90% of the conversation is them. Maybe it's a good thing that people can talk to me. But when that happens my thoughts start to turn inward and gradually become harder to express, to put into words. So that when it is my turn to talk, or someone asks me something, I can't adequately respond. Some days I feel like I'm drifting further and further away...I don't know...maybe I'm just tired. I wish the good days would start to outweigh the mediocre or not so good ones though...

Anywayyyy Today I'm Grateful For:
-When I push myself
-Pressing flowers
-Afternoon rain
-Seeing old friends
-Eating yummy food
-Sleep